A Letter to My Master

Hi Sir,

🏳️‍🌈 Happy Pride! 🏳️‍🌈

It's been a while since I've written you a letter, and I thought this would be a good opportunity for reflection and expression of gratitude.

I was trying to go back and find when we met based on my Kayak app, since Grindr didn't keep the old messages. I think I visited and accepted your collar in May 2019 and possibly even met you for the first time as early as November 2018. I'm really not sure. But I know that after a break, I visited you again on February 7, 2020, just before it was announced that COVID-19 was a pandemic, and we've been meeting steadily since then. So that's already more than five years, and maybe 6 or more years since meeting for the first time!

What a ride it's been, for both of us, I believe. I'm so grateful for the chance to become owned for the first time, and to serve as your boi. That's so different from just serving on an isolated session. Until then, I've only submitted to Doms in person, and I really didn't see the need to be controlled by a Master from afar until I met you.

Your control has been an anchor. You gave me a human connection, which was so crucial, especially in the beginning of the COVID-19 pandemic, when I was sheltering in place back home for six months, and not hooking up with anyone. Being away from you, I started fantasizing about being with you and exploring kinky adventures with you, which was how I started writing my story Collared, and later on turned it into a blog website and a podcast.

It was such a privilege to have someone who would keep me as his, under his control, even from a distance, and then be able to be with you again and again throughout the pandemic, when I didn't feel safe to be with anyone else.

But it's so much more than that. I know we've grown together and learned to understand each other's needs. We had more fights at first, but I admired your ability to communicate and ultimately find the way toward reconciliation and getting us to take our guards back down and be closer. We were rewarded with the possibility to spend more time together, with your stronger control and my deeper submission, than we had experienced before.

You made me take your collar when you imposed chastity for 10 days and made me mindfucked and desperate for you. But you kept a strong grip over my mind since then, even without chastity. As you gave me the freedom to cum whenever I asked for it, I was able to live with your control and reporting to you daily, as I wouldn't have been able to do for anyone else.

When last year you started imposing chastity ahead of one of my visits, you really took me by surprise, but I welcomed it. I was already playing a bit with chastity, but doing it for you was so much hotter than self-locking. The mindfuck was something else and I discovered new levels of eagerness.

I also now understand and fully appreciate your motivations for enforcing chastity. I believe you're prioritizing three benefits of chastity, and you're doing it so masterfully. You want to increase my eagerness ahead of meeting you, with chastity and cum denial for three weeks ahead, but you don't want me to get this eager at other times, when my eagerness could be mis-directed to others. Then when we meet, you let me unlock and eventually cum, because you know that in your presence, you already have so much power over me and you know I will be a good boi.

You were so perceptive to observe the second benefit of chastity—that it kept me focused, as opposed to wasting time on jerking off. I love that my productivity is important to you, whether it is for doing chores or advancing my career and my fitness. I'm lucky that you're a Master who seeks to build and improve his boi, while others sometimes put their subs down and ruin them. I'm your proud boi and I'm more motivated to be my better self—for me and for you. I understand I can be of so much better service to you if I can secure a new high-paying job and get a flat stomach. Just thinking about this helps me achieve more, Sir.

When I asked for your clarification about your chastity expectations, that helped me too. I guess I was risking that you'd tell me something that would make the requirements tighter, but I needed that clarity, and you kept your requirements logical and principled. That was so helpful for me, in order to adhere to your expectations and stay locked. Because you know I'm big on following rules. I know that this frustrates you sometimes, but it also helps me be of best service to you.

You made it clear that on the day-to-day, your chastity requirement was about being productive. You imposed it for the times I was supposed to focus on work. The idea was just that I don't waste time jerking off when I could be working (because I'm such a horny boi). So I knew I'm still being a good boi if I'm unlocking on a holiday, after 7 p.m., or when going on an errand or to a meeting (unless it was for a hookup or cruising)—because I wasn't going to work at those times anyway.

Then there's the third benefit of chastity, which I'm not sure I have entirely figured out yet. It relates to the prohibition to be unlocked when meeting other guys, whether on a hookup or cruising. For me there's a clear benefit, particularly as an exhibitionist. Before you set that rule, I had been occasionally experimenting with displaying myself locked in cruising bars. However, I was very selective about it, preferring to only do it in kinkier bars. Now you've taken the dilemma out of my hands, so that whenever I meet guys I display myself as submissive.

But I was already displaying myself as owned—as you required that I wear my collar at all times, and the collar says I'm your boi. Is the cage meant to show anyone who questions that ownership that you indeed have a strong control over me, making me be locked from a great distance? Is it to put up a barrier from connecting too much with other Doms? Maybe you could tell me sometime, but either way, it makes me proud. At least in one way, when I go locked to a bar or sauna or a clothing optional swimming pool, any uncertainty, shame, or discomfort about displaying myself locked is overcome with pride, because I know I'm wearing it for you, in your service, Sir. So thank you for that too, Sir.

Now I'm volunteering to give you more control. When I realized I was getting relaxed with my chastity regimen, I knew I needed more support to keep at it in full compliance of your expectations and to exert the full benefits, including for my productivity. That was why I asked you to clarify or reaffirm at what times you expected me to be locked. But a couple of days before that, I had already begun exploring the use of a new accountability tool. It adds the burden of reporting every locking and unlocking of the cage, so I needed to try it out on my own, to see I could handle it, before sharing it with you. I think I can stick with it, unless you have different advice.

This table allows me to easily report even from my phone every time I unlock and provide an explanation, so it always needs to be justified. There are so many times that I would love to jerk off for a bit, but with this system I know it wouldn't be justified. Inside of work hours I would not unlock, unless it was for a short bathroom break (to save me the mess), or when going to a meeting, an errand, or the gym.

I then realized I could easily make this monitoring table of even greater service to you, if I added reporting about orgasms (and ruined orgasms), so you'd have a better idea of my state of mind, as well as my cruising, hookups, and STI testing, since I know how important it is for you to be safe.

Oh Sir, I'm so happy to be yours!

Thank you,
From your boi