Giving Up the Whore Fantasy

Just a quick follow-up to report on the conclusion of my weekend trip with my Master in Wine Country. Perhaps just one main thing to report on is abandoning the fantasy of being whored out.

I mean, don’t worry. If that fantasy turns you on, be sure I’ll continue to realize it in my fantasy stories. And I would still do as my Master wants (and maybe other Masters I serve) - by serving other Doms that they wish to invite or by playing with other subs that they bring to serve them with me.

What changed is just that I’ve finally come to accept that I’m too picky to really enjoy being whored out to whomever. Master brought another sub that I was not into. Not that I was disgusted or anything that bad, but I was turned off by his perfume and I was not attracted to his face and body.

So I accept a Master’s demand to serve or play with others without opposing, but I realize that I might not really seek it independently. I could still get a kick out of it and perhaps especially from the “Mare Market” format, where you’re blindfolded and have zero choice or knowledge of who’s using you. But otherwise, perhaps my preference factors in too much into how I wish to play.

In the end, it all boils down to having fun in your play. Even as a sub, I feel that my preferences matter. They come second to Master’s preferences, of course, if total power exchange (TPE) is the scenario I’m playing at. But in the larger scheme of things, deciding my intos and limits, as well as fantasies, I guess that’s where I stand. I’ll do what my Masters want, if that includes being pimped out, but I won’t seek it out anymore. So I went ahead and scratched that off my Recon profile.