Reuniting with My Master
Chastity, travel chaos, and the edge between devotion and self-preservation
As he prepares to fly out and reunite with his Master, House Slave Fag records a candid set of musings from airports and airplanes. He's horny and frustrated from cum denial which is stretched for too long. He needs to balance devotion, work, and content creation, and he shares about all of them. This episode offers an intimate snapshot of a submissive on the edge of surrender, anticipation, and self-reflection—just before a long, demanding visit begins.
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Transcript
It's less than 24 hours until my flight to my Master and I've been wasting so much of it on jerking off when I should have been locked in chastity and packing my luggage. But I blame my Master. I'm super horny because he doesn't want to let me cum often. And you know, with me, as long as it's more than three days, that's enough to make me desperately horny.
It makes me especially vulnerable and I really have to talk to my Master about that as soon as possible because cum denial makes me more likely to take stupid decisions and submit to arguably riskier behaviors and Masters. As it happens, my therapist specifically asked me about that and wanted me to pay for a couple more sessions to explore why it was that I was interested in more dangerous guys. But if you ask me, I'm not interested in dangerous guys, just dominant or assertive guys, who sometimes may end up being dangerous. However, it is not my wish to put myself at risk, and I also know how much my Master doesn't want that either.
Before moving on and talking to you about everything that is on my mind, I should offer a quick introduction to this post or episode, as I'm going to post it both in written format and on my podcast. I discovered this new app called Wispr Flow. It is better than the usual speech-to-text that you have on your phone. It might even change the way I do content and help me produce more of it, especially as it's become a challenge lately because I have a very full plate. I have so many commitments and it's only going to get worse now that I'm traveling to my Master, as he's going to keep me so busy.
There are many things I want to tell you about in the coming months. I especially want to keep developing my fantasy stories. I'm sure the next three weeks with my Master will also offer much to reflect upon and share with you. It is going to be a long visit, so it will be challenging.
I'm also especially excited to go on a gay cruise on my own. I really hope I get to slut out and I'll want to tell you all about it. So I need to be efficient with my content production. Today's post or episode will be much like my bonus musings episodes. So enjoy the complementary musings, if you're not a paid subscriber already. But I do invite you to join — it's only $5 a month. And you'd be helping a rare kink creator produce more of the blogging and stories that you love.
That said, there's more free content I continue to develop, including to complete the Knox Method story. As with most of my other stories, I'll turn it into a digital book when I'm done, and it will become a paid premium product. I still want to write at least one chapter for its conclusion. I also want to write a new prologue to reframe the whole story. I'd like to present it as a learning experience. A fun but scary learning experience.
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Okay, I finally put my chastity cage back on. I don't know what I was thinking — not locking myself today. I wasted so much time on jerking off. The problem is that I really don't like packing and I like jerking off too much. Since I'm not allowed to cum, it just drives me more and more horny, and I can't stop myself from jerking off and edging forever.
There's this other Master I've been chatting with in the last couple of days, who might motivate me to be locked more. He's a sissifying Dom, so obviously he would prefer that I'd be dickless, and by that I mean locked in chastity. I mean, when I told him that I wasted the day on jerking off instead of locking myself and that I was thinking that I should have asked for his opinion in the first place, he agreed and said I should know better. I should know that Men would prefer that I'd be locked much more, and that he would think it would be better for me.
Unfortunately, our back and forth sopped after my response to his comment that we should later on talk about estrogen. That really crossed a line for me. I mean, I wasn't appalled by the suggestion. I just thought it was a little absurd to propose it, when he knew I wasn't trans. I'm just a fag. In fantasy it could be a lot of fun, and I even explored this kind of scenario in the story Tranced & Transformed. But the thing is, if I could ever go through some physical change like that, it would have to be like magic that you could reverse the next day, because I may need to see family or friends or work colleagues, and I'm not prepared to present as a woman to them. I am a fag. A very eager submissive fag, but still a masculine fag.
I love that even though he sees I'm a masculine man, he still thinks I can and should be a fem sissy for him. I'm just not looking to change anything physical permanently, nor do I seek the public exposure, outside of a discreet kinky venue. I've never even done anything more than wear a skirt or panties on a couple of occasions. I just hope that he wasn't put off by my refusal to entertain his idea about hormones. He's been ignoring my messages for the last day. Which really sucks, because I really love the banter with him. But I'm probably overdoing it a little bit because he may be someone who appreciates eagerness to a limit. After all, most guys would be turned off by total desperation.
As a sub, it's totally fine to show great eagerness and a proclivity to submit very low, more than in usual vanilla courtship. However, the paradox is that even a sub still needs to preserve some measure of self-worth, some limit to his pathetic desperation, so that the Dom can see his worth too. If that makes sense to you. I'll wait until it's morning in his time zone before I message him again to beg for his confirmation, that he still wants me to be sissified by him.
I have a 6-hour layover on my way to my Master, which gives me some time to work on this episode. Once I arrive at my Master's place, I'll have little time to work on my content. Not to mention that I need to finish my work project by the end of the month.
I have so little time left, and the next few days are going to be so busy for me, entertaining him and his friends. I spent so much time creating the itinerary for our trip and then I needed to re-do it when he told me that his friend and his friend's boyfriend would be joining us. And then I needed to make more changes once again, when he told me that we should not have morning activities because his friends wouldn't wake up, even though they had seen the itinerary earlier and confirmed it. I spent many hours on the itinerary, but that's just another part of my responsibilities and services. My god, my Master really knows how to manage me. I just hope he gives me dick soon because god knows I need it.
I'm not locked right now on my flights and at the airports. After all, travel is exhausting enough as it is. Plus, I don't want any embarrassment from security. I was already embarrassed enough when a security officer at the airport in the U.S. once asked to see my dog tag, which stated that I was a slave. I thought it was so ridiculous that he insisted on seeing what was written on it. Usually they just want to see materials to know that there's nothing explosive, god forbid, and he saw it. It was just a dog tag. What business of his was it to see what was written on it? What in hell could be written on it that would concern him? I mean, if the text I had there about being a slave didn't concern him, what the hell could? Pardon me for getting upset like that, but privacy is just one more important limit of mine. I wish people respected privacy more, not only in kinky engagements but also in our regular day-to-day engagements that are not supposed to be kinky. I think that security officer crossed a line.
Anyway, I have two flights on this trip to my Master. My dick was hard a good for part of the first flight. The passenger sitting in the seat in front of me sat down very abruptly when he returned from the restroom and he spilled so much of my red wine on me. I was rather upset because, as with Murphy's Law, I had in my carry-on many clothes except for pants. I rubbed all around my groin area with a wet wipe that the flight attendant provided and I guess that got me a little excited.
Another bright side beside the hard on was that the wet wipe worked surprisingly well. It probably helped that my pants were themselves colored like red wine. I covered my lap with a napkin for the entire duration of the flight because it looked like I totally wet myself. By the time we landed and I needed to get out of my seat, I was pleasantly surprised to find that the huge stain had dried, perhaps thanks to the dry air on the plane. I couldn't see any stain anymore. Call it a Christmas miracle. And now I don't have an excuse to treat myself to a new pair of pants at the airport. You see, you can always find the empty half of the glass of red wine.
No, I'm kidding. I'm lucky and happy not to look like I totally wet my pants. Uff, I can imagine working that into one of my stories or even something that could happen with this new Dom I've been talking to. He would stain my pants so badly, and I would be forced to choose between either walking around like that, as if I wet my pants, or accepting his remedy, wearing a short, flimsy, slutty pair of shorts that he'd give me to strut in. In the eyes of someone like that, it wouldn't even be absurd to offer me such a garment as a solution because he sees me as a slut anyway.
While I have your ear, I'd love to chat about what content you think I should focus on next. Just to say, if you want more of this kind of informal updates, I do that every weekend in my bonus musings podcast episodes. And I'm also happy to chat with you if you're the kind of fan who would tribute for that sort of personal attention. Messaging on my SUBS page is perfect for that. Just go to subs.com/HouseSlaveFag. No subscription is required, but you may be asked to verify your age, depending on your country. Or you can reach out to me on social media and I'll show you how to demonstrate your appreciation through my Throne page. I'm HSFaggot on X and subblogger on Instagram.
But as I was saying, let's discuss plans for my content. Besides all my non-fiction blogging about everything I'm going through, are you also into fiction? Do you enjoy listening to my fantasies or reading about them? I really want to get back to my core story, Collared, in which I imagined going further into more extreme kinky situations with my real-life Master. Then, as I have been thinking a lot about sissifcation, I'd be ready to jump back into Volume 3 of Tranced & Transformed, or Volume 2 of Submitting to Master Macho. I wonder how either of those resonated with you. I'd especially love to hear the opinions of sissies and sissifying Doms.
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I know some of you are also waiting for me to get back to telling a story from the perspective of a Dom. Draining finsubs has helped me get into the right headspace for that. I do enjoy giving subs a lower place under me. If you're also excited by that, send me a message and let's start draining you, faggot.
Just a head's up to my paid subscribers: Obviously I'll have some musings to share after this Christmas trip with my Master. However, since I'll be busy wine tasting with him through Sunday, and as you may benefit from getting complete musings from this entire trip, expect my bonus episode to release later than usual, perhaps next Monday. Enjoy the anticipation.
I have such exciting real-life events to look forward to in the coming months, if things go as I'd like. One is the potential sissification under either of the Bulls I've been chatting with recently. If either of them comes through, that will be a life-changing experience and I'll have so much to add to my blog and my sissification stories.
The second thing which could be really exciting is my gay cruise in three weeks. I sure hope that traveling on my own will bring fun new experiences with fun new guys. Hot guys. Dom guys. Kinky guys. And if I'm lucky, maybe even some romance. But I'm getting ahead of myself. It's only three weeks to go. You'll be the first to know when I have stories to share!
Last but not least, my career. I need to be driven to really go for what I want in my life. I want to pivot and break through with a much higher paying job as I deserve. I want my valuable insights to be appreciated, just as you all appreciate my kinky mind. I can help a new employer achieve so much more through the way I know to connect with people and imagine new opportunities. Thinking about the future, fantasizing — that's a part of what I do best. In kink and in life.
I didn’t have time to finish making this episode during my layover, so I’m continuing for a bit during my long flight. I'm almost ready to wrap up, and I look forward to sleeping for a few hours. It's been a long trip.
I treated myself to business class with my miles. As some of you know, I've had a hard couple of months, taking care of my dad until he passed away, and now I’m not shy about taking care of myself. I spent some extra miles for a business ticket, but it saves me some trouble to be able to carry extra luggage, since I’m traveling for a few months. Plus it was a good rate. Plus it’s a 12-hour flight, on top of the long connection and the shorter flight to get to the connection. Plus — and this is most important — I’m worth it.
If you like treating yourself sometimes, you can get it. And if you like treating others sometimes, you can get it too, and you may already be thinking of how you can treat me to more of this.
I should get back to draining fags. It’s the big fans who help make my content possible, and more than just big fans, it’s big fags, eager subs, who love giving and feeling their cashhole gaped for me.
I’ve given you The Knox Method story so you could really feel what hard spiraling is like. But don’t worry. If you seek draining by me, I’ll take care of you. I don’t want your ruin, just your pleasure from leaking more and more. So be a good boi and go send.
That’s it folks. I’m just about to land in San Francisco. It’s time to serve.
Until next time, be well, be good, and have fun.