Starting Long-Term Chastity

You can explore a lot of my journey with chastity through these blog posts:

• August 10, 2024: Starting Long-Term Chastity (present post)
• August 16, 2024: Chastity Works (Day 11)
• August 30, 2024: Losing my Chastity Key. Losing my Mind.
• September 21, 2024: Away from Master but Deeper in Chastity

“I want you locked starting today. I will be your key holder.”

That’s what my Master told me on Monday. So I’m already well past my 72-hour threshold, when the mindfuck kicks in, making me so horny, until I become desperate and more submissive.

I don’t know where this came from. He told me: “Let’s see what happens.” Is he really curious about what three weeks of chastity will do to me by the time that we meet on our upcoming trip? Is it something he saw online or an idea he got from someone else? Or maybe it's my fault, if he finally read my blog or listened to my podcast? I say that because in one of my posts about chastity, I did say that I’d be happy to lock for him if he asked. But I also said that he normally doesn’t impose chastity, because he doesn’t like that it makes me agitated, as I become more at risk of forgetting my place and lashing out.

Maybe he feels like experimenting because he’s curious if it’ll be more fun, putting me so much deeper in the sub headspace. Maybe I’ll get a better idea from him when we meet. I didn’t want to bother him with too many questions now. But he always volunteers so little information. A man of few words.

I'm still trying to figure out if there's a way for me to handle the cage at night. I'm grateful that my Master is willing to let that go. After all, I think we both agree that the main thing is not cumming - with or without a cage on. That's what creates the mindfuck. Though the cage is a great reminder of his control, as it is physically present all the time, even when my Master is half-way across the world. Yesterday I was even reminded of it for the first time while sitting locked for a family dinner. I've always been weary of being caged in their presence, though it's only in my head and no one saw anything.

On the other hand, there are some situations in which I'm tempted to have the cage seen. I've shared that I'm an exhibitionist and that I often go to cruising bars naked and locked, even if I'm usually the only locked boi. I like that Doms can see that I'm a sub. But if I'm locked all the time, the cage may also be noticed at the gym, especially when I choose to wear some of my more tight shorts, which my Master from Mexico said were slutty. On my way to the gym, I caught someone looking at me down there, though I can't be sure if she was looking at my short shorts or my cage bulge. The bulge is especially noticeable in some exercises, like when I'm spreading my legs apart. But I won't reveal it in the locker room like other subs do. I know it can create fun opportunities if I come across a Dom, but more often I'd be likely to make a non-kinky guy uncomfortable, and that's something I never want to do.

I'll just finish the thought about nighttime locking. I've been given a few suggestions that I'm still exploring:

• Bephanten cream - I tried. It offers some relief but it's insufficient and I still woke up.
• Bephanten lotion - Maybe the guy that suggested Bephanten meant this lotion? It's under the same brand name as the cream, but is more greasy and may be used for diaper rash. I put it on and it didn't seem to be lubricating the skin really.
• Sport Guard - Intended to prevent chafing. I'll have to check it out.
• Larger ring or different cage - That will be more expensive and it means more unlocking and relocking, but I'll try. It will just take more time to ship to me.

Another health issue that I need to figure out is emptying my balls every few days. It is important, or you can have prostate complications. I think I may be able to get sufficient release from getting fucked while in chastity or from fucking myself with a thick dildo. It just needs to be hard, sustained and focused, with the deliberate aim of hitting my prostate and getting to leak. It gives some pleasure, but usually not the same as an orgasm. That’s all I want. To empty my balls and maintain my health. I’m not asking for an orgasm. A probably easier alternative is a vibrating wand to use against the cage, but I'll need to buy that too.

I'm the worrying type. The main thing is having fun though, right? But my health comes first, so I have these considerations, together with the worry that not cumming will make me depressed. So I'm going to watch myself and experiment with all the advice offered by other subs. CagedJock Legion's Telegram channel is a great resource for that. I guess we’ll see what happens. This is the first time I'll be locking for three weeks (maybe more if my Master decides to keep it on). Until now, my longest was 10 days. I'm already wondering what will happen if I'm locked when we go on the gay cruise in October. I'll do everything to make this work for the benefit of my Master.