Wrapping Up No Nut November

November was an intense month. After a much more difficult October, I was ready to get back to work and fun in November, including kink. My Owner had a funny way of mixing them together. He thought that if I were less busy with nutting, I could focus more on work. He's very supportive of my need to be productive and advance my work and job hunt, so that I'll be less stressed and will have more disposable income to spend on travels with him, especially on cruises.

But he thought wrong. I was careful not to be too blunt and say "I told you so," but the fact of the matter is that I had told him so when the month began. I know how my mind works and how horny I get. When I don't cum for more than three days, I get a mindfuck. It can be a sweet feeling, tingling in my hole and making me feel good about doing it, as a way to be more submissive toward others, including him, but really, toward all Doms I interact with. However, No Nut November gets me very distracted, the opposite of focused. Not being able to cum doesn't make me forget about it, as if I could just choose to put it out of my mind since it's futile. On the contrary, it makes me think about cumming all the time. It makes the urge to jerk off so much stronger.

Now, jerking off is another matter. If I were truly prevented from jerking off, that could get me less distracted, but not if I'm desperately horny. So being locked in chastity a lot of the time helped, but I was always tempted to jerk off, even though he told me he'd rather I didn't jerk off. It's just that the rules about jerking off were much looser than the rules about chastity. With chastity it was clear: I was required to be locked at times that I'm supposed to work or when I'm meeting with other guys. There was no such rule about jerking off.

I only made some progress with reducing my time jerking off toward the end of the month, when I decided to include a penalty in my performance fees system for when I jerked off for an hour. However, it's worth noting that I only resorted to this system when I realized I needed to do something because my productivity was going down (and again — I blame No Nut November).